As I mentioned in one of my recent blog entries, I was recently hired on full time for the company I was moonlighting for. Now I’m simply moonlighting for FlamingLunchbox. Life is busy. Life is good.
Considering I’ve just been hired on as a permanent employee, and it’s my first permanent position since my previous job which inspired me to take this journey, I felt it was nigh on time to reflect on where I am now. It’s also been about a year and a half since I left the company which gave me a sick feeling in my stomach for almost 9 months.
Reflecting on my recovery brought me back an old entry where I explored What it means to be recovered?. After reading about how I felt only 6 months ago I realized just how much has changed in my life. For quick reference, the definitions of ‘recovery’, as used in my February entry.
Definition: to regain strength, composure, balance, or the like… Medical Definition: the person has developed a personal sense of hope and empowerment that wasn’t there before.
First major difference I’ve found is that when I see former coworkers from this place of work I’m happy to see them. I try to wave or smile their way. I feel anger at my former boss, but it’s not the rage it once was. I still wouldn’t mind punching her face in, at least in my imagination. I think that’s only because I want some kind of retribution for what happened to me and how I was made to feel. But, be it age or simply time, now I would rather just keep on keepin’ on. I would rather continue to live the life I love and enjoy.
One of the major differences for me that’s happened, is being hired on as a permanent employee. From that comes being financially stable. Having the ability to pay your bills every month greatly increases your ability to handle any situation, and oh boy have I realized how much that’s made a difference.
I definitely feel a sense of hope and empowerment now that was not there in February. I wake up and I want to be up and doing things. I am building on awesome projects I love, and they’re getting bigger and better. Robey and I are taking a trip to Germany (have I mentioned this yet?), for the ENTIRE MONTH OF DECEMBER. It’s going to be glorious.